Day 21 of Ali's latest class at BPC ~ 31 Things. Ali describes the class thus: 31 Things is about capturing life right now but will be much more in-depth on a single daily subject than the documentation you might be used to with projects like Week in the Life or Project Life. This workshop is an opportunity to get specific pieces of your story told with the simple goal of telling more.
Day 21 | Think:
17 April 2012, that was the day we received the formal diagnosis of The Boy Child's autism. Seven or so weeks on from that and I'm finding it hard to think about anything else. Frankly, autism is depressing, both to observe and to read up on.
The thing is, The Boy Child isn't any different to the way he was on 16 April 2012. Yet I find myself thinking of the worst case scenarios and the what ifs. What if The Boy Child is never able to live independently when he is an adult? What if something happens to me and The Brainy One? As we are older parents, this is something I think about a lot.
I have to make a choice to allow autism to live alongside us in our daily lives, but not for it to set the tone.
I have to choose to look after me, as well as looking after The Boy Child and The Brainy One. And that means making time for me, even if that means simply staring out of the window for 10 minutes. Right now, I'm sad, emotional and confused. Trying to hang on to my One Little Word of 'enjoy' is nigh on impossible.
There is hope, so much hope.
There is love, so much love.
I choose to take on this life.
One day at a time.